I never keep the same friends for long. I'm the kinda person who only lets people screw up once. Maybe it's a bad thing then again maybe it's not. I still miss my ex bestfriend terri but i think it's better now. I couldn't deal with her cutting and other stuff. i mean how can a cutter help a cutter? I did love her with all my heart and always will but i think it's better from afar. Her life went down hill. Shes deep in drugs but i can't let myself try to help her. I just cant. She stabbed my heart and gave it a thousand deaths and i can't deal with that again. Me and kyia broke up. She keeps calling and it sux that girls hurt me more than any guy ever could. She broke my heart many times but i think i'm stronger bc of it and i'm glad i walked away. Maybe in the future i'll find a girl or guy that i can be with and get close to without the fear of getting hurt.